Ooi Boon Seng was born in Kuala
Lumpur, Malaysia on April 21, 1940. He joined the V.I.
in January 1952 from the Pasar Road School. Boon Seng’s
record of academic achievements was a formidable one;
he topped his class in all the form tests in the
school. He was Treacher Scholar in 1955 and he made
nationwide news when he aced a perfect 8 A1s score
(including an A1 for Latin) in the Cambridge School
Certificate examination, arguably the best
results ever for any Malayan schoolboy. This earned
him the coveted Rodger Scholarship. Boon Seng was a
keen Scout and editor of both The Seladang
and The Victorian. He was a School Prefect,
the Honorary Secretary of the Literary and Debating
Society, the Secretary of Davidson House, the Secretary
of his scout troop and represented
the V. I. in various debates, quizzes and chess
competitions.
Boon Seng had two older brothers in the
V.I., Boon Leong and Boon Teck, who in their time also won
the Treacher and Rodger scholarships. Boon Leong is a lawyer
in Kuala Lumpur while Boon Teck is Professor in the
Department of Electrical and Computer Engineering at
McGill University, Montréal.
Boon Seng received his MB, BS, in 1964
from the University of Singapore and the FRACP in 1976. He
became a faculty member in the University of Singapore. In
1968, he moved to USA, settling in Chicago where he joined
Michael Reese Hospital and became Assistant Professor of
the Pritzker School of Medicine, University of Chicago.
Boon Seng specialized in nephrology, the branch of medicine
that deals with kidneys. His research area through his
career was on immunology of the kidney.
In 1973, he joined the College
of Medicine, University of Cincinnati where he rose to the
rank of Professor. In 1989, Boon Seng moved to Washington
D.C., where he was Chief of Renal Section at the Department
of Veterans Affairs Medical Center, Professor of Medicine
(Nephrology) and Co-Director of the Renal Division at
George Washington University Medical School.
Boon Seng was a member of American
Association for the Advancement of Science, American
Society of Nephrology and American Federation of Clinical
Research. He was listed in American Men and Women of Science
which is the Who’s Who of the scientific community.
On October 29, 1997, Boon Seng passed away after a stroke.
Reproduced below is a short story
written by Boon Seng during his student days.
Obsession
It came as no surprise to him, all
E's. Wan Hor stared at the brown sheet of paper in front
of him, relaxed the wrinkles he deliberately furrowed
on his forehead and went back to "Justine." Sharp
electric tinkle - school bell. There was no Alexandria,
only the arid classroom and the guttural emancipated
voices all around him. The report card faced him
disconsolately - Botany, Zoology, Physics, Chemistry,
E's and his own despairing sigh. They equated well.
He dog-eared the page of the novel and placed it in
the leather-bag.
Outside, the heat was oppressive.
August and exams, both oppressive. He threaded his way
past other boys, heading for the bus-stop. The car was
busy today, and he was to make his own way home.
"I say, Wan Hor, can I give you a
lift?" Wan Hor looked up. Ee Beng. He wanted to refuse
(Ee Beng only liked to talk about his school-work and
cricket) but it would be too troublesome to invent a
plausible excuse. Cream Volkswagen, starched Arrow
shirt, Wembley tie, and Ee Beng's father. Perfect
congruence. Wan Hor checked himself. His own family
combination was but a slight variation.
"Hullo, Mr. Tan," he greeted the
father. He could never bring himself to address his
own father's friends as "uncle," or "auntie," as he
had been taught to do at home; somehow it was too
slyly personal.
"Wan Hor, you haven't come to the
house for some time," Mr. Tan asked him. "How is your
father? - haven't seen him either - not lately." Mr.
Tan had a habit of asking two questions at any one
time, and not expecting you to answer either. And Mr.
Tan continued to relate what happened in the office in
which he worked - it was in the Ministry of Education -
how many scholarships there would be, how fortunate
they, the youngsters, were, and many other details Wan
Hor did not bother to follow. He made suitable grunts.
Ee Beng did not seem in the least embarrassed.
"Well, here we are," Mr. Tan
concluded, "come over to the house sometime, Wan
Hor."
Wan Hor thanked him and hurriedly
got out, only to remember that his mother ...no, the
car was not back yet; there would be still some little
time when he could be alone. Inside the house, the hall
was cool, and for once he was grateful for the
air-conditioning (when it was first installed he had
suspected that his mother was merely keeping up; an
air-conditioner was as conspicuous as a television
aerial and in addition it made a noise). Somehow,
being insulated from that humid heat made a difference;
he could understand how ascetics, weary from the
insistent tortures of the body could be made to
believe in their own hallucinations. His own problem,
which only perturbed him a little in school, had been
stretched by the tedious ride home into absurd
proportions.
Somehow in school, the images of
Alexandria had blotted out the urgency of his own
situation, the repercussions which his dismal end-term
report was sure to provoke; but in the car Mr. Tan's
intrusive chatter about scholarships, the cramped
discomfort, had forced his attention on the question
again. Now back home, he felt secure. The clock struck
one. Almost involuntarily he walked to his room, fished
the Zoology text-book from amongst the clutter on his
table, and went back to read in the hall. It would soften
her irritation to see him pouring over a text-book.
He leaped through his "Grove and Newell" and he cursed
each protozoan he met, its conjugation habits, and its
endless life-cycles. If organisms had to reproduce
they should do so simply and neatly. He worked himself
into a frenzy of frustration, like a violaceous boil
pointing to burst. Only today, there would be need
of more patience, more tolerance.
Once before, he thought he would
spite her, and kill himself - that would really upset
her - and he had smuggled a rope into his room - he
wanted to make it frighteningly dramatic, his corpse
swaying pendulously from the ceiling and he had
tightened it around his neck whilst lying in bed -
this was in the practice run - and he had to give up
in a splutter of coughing. It was much too difficult
that way. In any case, he found out later that he had
attempted it badly, unprofessionally. Death by hanging
was supposed to be instantaneous, due to a severance of
the spinal cord - he had almost only succeeded in
choking his air-passages.
He stared blankly at the conjugating
paramecia, with his own caption - "What the butler saw"
-it did look like one of the modern paintings he had
seen of two people locked in a furious embrace trying
to sustain an orgasm. That was the only way he made his
pages endurable, with his own irreverent annotations.
The phone rang.
Her commanding voice sounded over the
ear-piece. They would not be back for lunch. His gush of
relief was almost audible. Last injunction he was to
study hard in the meantime. Putting the phone down,
he flipped the text-book shut, and crossed over to
the piano - the only piece of furniture he liked. And
even the piano was decked with mementos of his parents'
European tour, leaden miniature of the Eiffel Tower,
grotesque Dutch dolls, etc. - memory had to be
solidified into palpable possessions.
His mother had introduced him to the
piano. (If he had been a girl, he would doubtless have
also taken ballet lessons - it was like learning your
table-manners.) Wan Hor had taken to the piano. He
remembered his first few lessons; he remembered the
excitement he felt when he discovered the versatile
simulation of natural sounds which the piano allowed,
and it had enraptured and possessed him; he practised
the keys with an obsessed determination and he enjoyed
devising his own permutations of sounds; and one day,
after his own decision, he asked his mother if he
could study music as a career:
"You want to become what?"
"I'd like to study music."
"You can study all the music you
want when you've graduated - when you're a doctor."
"But what's wrong with taking up
music. I mean, I like music - I can learn it easily.
I'm no good at science subjects."
"How do you expect to be clever at
it when you don't study. Now you look at Chee Peng.
How do you think he comes out first every time. He
studies - every day. He wants to be a doctor; he
doesn't want to be a clerk. What do you think you
can do if you study music. You think that you'll be
world famous?"
"It's not that - Ma. I just like
music, and I can become a music teacher and give
piano lessons. I mean . . ."
"Now listen to me, Ah Hor. I've
stood enough of this nonsense. You'd better learn to
grow up. You're going to study and become a doctor,
you understand. Just because you live in a fine house
and you've everything you want. You think what - how
much do you think you'll make as a piano-teacher.
Surely you want people to look up to you. First you
must have money - but that's not enough; you must
also have a profession - you look at your Uncle
Chong - don't you want to be like him. . . ."
From that day he was forbidden
to play on the piano.
But he managed to steal time on
it, with the ready connivance of the servant.
He caressed its keys, and he
tarted to play the "Heroic Polonaise" - the
resplendent mood suited him. And when he had
finished, he felt clean as if he had rinsed himself
of the resentment which clogged up his pores and
threatened to suffocate him. He laughed aloud -
he liked the way he ended the piece - his own
style.
"The next part of the concert
is a recital of Beethoven's Moonlight Sonata,"
he spoke aloud, using the accent of a B.B.C. announcer.
He grinned to himself and began.
"Ah Hor, Ah Hor, your Mama is
back."
It was the servant - she had spotted
the car winding up the road.
Quickly he shut the piano, dived
into the sofa and snatched the text-book as well,
opening it. A car screeched to a halt at the porch.
Two doors slammed. He was glad his father was also
back. His father did not mind so much that he was
backward in class - his father seemed happy enough
if he was left alone - and he would help to cushion
the reproaches which would follow when the report
card was read.
His mother and Uncle Chong.
(Uncle Chong was his father's brother.) She was in
an expressively happy mood, and then she noticed
Wan Hor bent over his book.
"No need to be so hard-working.
Your uncle is here - talk to him; find out how you
can be as clever as he is."
And then Wan Hor heard her
explaining to the servant how the master of the
house was busy, and in fact she had not intended
to be home, but because Uncle Chong happened to stop
by, she had decided to return. The servant was to set
lunch for three.
Wan Hor looked up at Uncle Chong
- handsome Chinese features, which meant that he was
fair, very fair, and had an appropriate dimple as
well - but actually Wan Hor did think he was good-looking,
if only he had no uneven exaggerations of profile.
Wan Hor had been bored often enough by his winding
sermons on methods of studying, aims of living, the
same long-playing record, stereophonic and doubly
amplified, and the same scratchy intonations. Wan Hor
decided that perhaps this was an opportune moment
to let his mother review the report-card, before
her effervescence settled. He excused himself from
Uncle Chong and searched amongst his books in the
bag, and fetched it to her as she returned to the
hall.
Her features straightened into
a harsh frown, and then she exploded, despite
Uncle Chong:
"All E's. Last term also it
was all E's. You promised to work hard. Now the
Higher School is just three months off, and how
are you going to pass it - I ask you. You've got
no heart in your work."
She paused. He was silent.
This was fairly routine.
"You want to be a doctor,
don't you?"
(He interposed in his own mind
that she knew damn well he didn't.)
"I can't understand you. Mrs.
Chua's son - he's a blockhead - I know that - his
father's a blockhead - the whole family is stupid -
and yet he can pass his exams. Why can't you just
spend these few years working hard. You look at
your Uncle Chong - he'll tell you how much hard
work he put in - but look at him now - he's not
just anybody - he's a respected man - just a few
years of hard work."
He wanted to say many things,
but he kept his silence. He wanted to ask her
what was wrong in being a businessman, like his
father, for example; why it was so necessary to
be a doctor. It was not that he wanted to take
up the business, but then there would be more
reason for the vehemence of her ambition.
Next movement.
"I've spent money to get you a
private tutor. I've bought you any number of books
- model answers, correspondence courses, but they're
all useless. Last year, also all failures in your
subsidiary exams. What's the matter. If you don't
know how to study, why don't you ask people - your
Uncle Chong. He obtained eight distinctions in the
School Certificate; he was the intermediate scholar
and the professional scholar - you are lucky to have
such a brilliant uncle, and yet you won't ask. I
know what's the matter - half the time I'm not here,
you're reading one of your poetry books. Don't think
I don't know. Your father, he doesn't seem to worry
if you pass or fail, but look at him."
She checked herself fortunately,
or Wan Hor would have lost control of himself. He
could endure her panegyrics about Uncle Chong but
he was genuinely fond of his father, and he was
resentful of any sort of comparison between the
two. Uncle Chong was all right, but he had been
cited so many times as the paragon Wan Hor should
imitate, that he bore him an unreasonable dislike.
If she had been less insistent, less bullying, he
might at least have made an attempt, however
ineffectual. But her obsessive wanting killed
any interest he had.
"Chong, you used to keep a
notebook when you were a student, Planning your
time-table; I wish you would let this loafer read
it, so that he can learn to plan his own studies."
"Now, Leng, there is no need to
be too harsh on the boy," Uncle Chong interceded.
"Yes, I remember, Ah Hor," she
disregarded Uncle Chong, "here is a pile of old
books and letters in my cupboard - I remember Chong,
you gave it to me - and there is a green book. Read
it and learn to plan your studies." She did not heed
what Uncle Chong said.
Wan Hor reached his limit of
tolerance. To be ordered to read some absurd catalogue
of time-tables and parrot methods of swotting compiled
by somebody who did not have more intelligence but
just mulish sweat, goaded him to rebel. Somehow he
resented having to touch anything concrete that
belonged to Uncle Chong. So far he (Uncle Chong)
had only been some sort of disembodied bugbear
merely mentioned as some other figurehead Samuel
Smiles would quote in the Duty, but now
Uncle Chong had suddenly materialised. He was a
three-dimensional flesh and blood bugbear who
promised to haunt his life, and Wan Hor decided
that if he submitted to this humiliation he would
lose his self-respect.
"I am not going to read that
Student's Guide."
It was a bald statement.
Only the last bit was tempered with some sarcasm.
"Ah Hor, what did you say?"
She could hardly believe her ears. "Did you say
that you would not obey me?"
She could never separate the
universal and the particular. Every act of his
was interpreted in larger symbolic terms. And
how could anybody argue against such logic.
"Mother, it is not just not
obeying you. It just seems not reasonable . . ."
and he could not express his sense of rebelliousness.
How could you compress so many years of irritation,
of frustrated ambition, of suppressed talent into
one rather insignificant perhaps indefensible
excuse and reason.
"Mother, can't you see," he
tried again, "can't you see that I don't want to
be a doctor. And most of all I don't want to be
an imprint of someone else's image."
"You young fool, can't you see
that it is for your own good. Without my guidance
you will be just like one of those Yankee boys
loitering in the street."
"Yes I know how you have guided
me; when I was in Form I you wanted me to take up
swimming because Uncle Chong was a champion swimmer;
when I was in Form Four, I had to speak in debates
because Uncle Chong used to be a champion orator."
"Now, Ah Hor, there is no point. . ."
Uncle Chong began, but he was cut short. (The one
good point about Uncle Chong was that you did not
know which side he was on because he usually kept
silent to let the family sort out the quarrel.)
"Chong, I will deal with the boy myself. Hor,
I have had enough of your impudence for one day.
You will apologise to Uncle Chong. Then tomorrow
I want you to give me some sort of schedule of your
studies based on what your Uncle Chong had jotted
down. Now, quickly, say you're sorry." When you
have to stay in the same house and eat with that
person, and live with that person, what else would
you do. She would be adamant anyhow.
"I'm sorry, Uncle Chong," he
managed to utter.
"There, that's better. Now,
go and study. And remember what you have to do
tomorrow. And no more nonsense."
He went back to his room, and
slammed the door after him. It always ended like
this, his fights, in humiliating submission; only
today, instead of planning the next evasion, he
knew that he would have to settle his problem and
his hopes. The bronze mask of Beethoven stared at
him with its eyeless orbits, and he replied the
look with a frustrated shrug.
He was no Beethoven but that
did not mean that he should give up music. And
more than his personal sacrifice, it suddenly
occurred to him that if he gave up the struggle
(and that was how it had started, why he was
living among his straight-jacketed herd, because of
the private acts of cowardice of individuals like him)
he would allow this sort of thing to go on. It was
not a strong emotion but it helped. And he wondered
if any of his classmates were frustrated - it did
not seem likely - they even seemed to enjoy pithing
the spinal cord of a frog and watching it writhe and
urinate and then slowly straighten out into its
flaccid death paralysis. Perhaps it was just that
he was a freak - and he stared querulously at himself
in the mirror and decided he was normal. He was quite
certain his classmates honestly aspired to be doctors,
or engineers, but it was no good speculating endlessly,
no point denouncing the society he lived in. Perhaps
he was wrong, completely in the wrong. But there was
nothing specially wrong - it was not even a moral
question - he was just different. It might have been
a good idea to talk to some of his classmates,
only he could predict their response - stereotyped.
If only at least half the other fellows were in the
same predicament as he, he would feel some sort of
comfort, however negative. But he knew he had to
talk with someone, just to be able to talk, and you
hoped the other person shared your feeling as well.
Old Mr. Daljit Singh, that was who he should talk to.
He remembered that Mr. Daljit Singh was the only
teacher in school he liked - he remembered that in
their first term, Mr. Daljit Singh had played to the
class, a recording of forest sounds, a weird and
beautiful symphony - afterwards Wan Hor had spoken
to him and they had become friends.
"Now, Wan Hor," Mr. Daljit Singh
began, and he was an oldish wrinkled man, with a
pot-belly, not always sober, but just now still
reasonably coherent, "I know how fed up you are.
When you're young, nobody seems to understand you.
Come on, I'll play you a record, first; it came
today - I won't tell you what it is - you tell me
your reactions."
Wan Hor was glad of the diversion.
The old man always had something to show you -
his room was littered with such stuff - untidily
strewn - he was unmarried.
"It's a piece by Carl Orff,"
he remarked when the record had almost finished,
"doesn't it sound primitive?" Wan Hor nodded.
"Now about your problem," he resumed, "the
thing to remember is that when you're young,
it's so easy to think you're always in the right.
But it isn't quite so simple. When your mama
told you not to suck too much candy, because it
was bad for your teeth, you thought you knew
better. But mama's right, isn't she - you won't
allow your children to gobble up the candy either."
Wan Hor thought the old man
had suddenly gone woolly - after all his problem
could not be reduced to such simple terms. But
he did not like to reiterate his questions. The
old man continued:
"And when you began to go to
school, it was the same thing - your maths and
your essays - it's only now you appreciate your
teachers - and I'm not talking about myself."
Low grin.
"What I'm trying to give you
is a sort of grand view from above. What you're
likely to feel in, say, twenty years time. The
trouble is, we all want to do the things we feel
we're good in - we've so much hope when we're
looking forward. But it won't be the same when
you've spent yourself and done nothing worthwhile.
You see, so many of us call our tendencies talents.
Just because we like to do a thing, it doesn't mean
we must live our lives out doing it - that becomes
a bad habit, inertia - Newton's first law. It also
applies to people." The old man heaved himself from
the rattan chair, and walked to his shelf of books
and came back with one with a gaudy cover.
"Come here, I'll show you
something."
It was a photograph - youngish
bearded man, standing beside a painting. Wan Hor
was more than perplexed.
"You don't recognise Daljit
Singh at seventeen, do you? Me and my first prize,
first in this country - I used to be good at painting
- I thought I'd take the art world by storm; the
art world wasn't in the least impressed - seven
years in Paris. I'm back here teaching English.
But I'm happy, because I know I'm doing a useful
job here. You look at an old man and you laugh -
sure, I found out I didn't have so much genius
after all."
He sniggered and he looked at
Wan Hor, trying to probe his thoughts and hoping
to answer his doubts. "You think I'm too old and
I don't know what I'm talking about. That's not
true." He paused. "Remember that you're responsible
for the happiness of others as well. Your mother
- maybe she can't understand you, but she wants
you to be happy. Look at it from that point of
view. Maybe you'll feel better then - huh."
Wan Hor was fatigued. When
you are weary of struggling, when you are too
confused to discover your own solution, you get
hypnotised into agreeing. That must he the answer.
He would try his hardest to understand physics,
chemistry and biology. He would yet become a
doctor, and he would plot out that silly, no
perhaps it was not even silly, time-table for
his studies, and show her that he did mean business.
He was happy.
All dawns are happy, if you are
happy. Wan Hor felt happy. It was almost like a New
Year's day, when you have a sort of boundary over
which you are about to cross and there your body
becomes clean again, disinfected, aseptic. His first
duty would be to hunt for that diary and peruse it.
Life seemed disconcertingly simple. The old cupboard
with that bunch of old letters and the green Student's
Handbook . . . it was curious how some of his own
friends kept such daily records of their own progress,
to measure in tangible terms what they had to do or
have done. It was not difficult to find. He glanced
through it - all sorts of formulae, a clever index of
sorts, in neat legible handwriting. And then he
noticed that one big heap of letters adjacent
bore the same boyish handwriting. Well, there was
no harm in reading one of them.
My dear Leng,
I know I've not written for
some time, and what I'm going to say will be difficult,
but it is better quickly said. I've found someone else.
This sounds ridiculous, and a little unreal, that
after our six years together, there will be only
memories to substitute, and nothing more. But the
passion we shared was real, the love I had for you
real, and I know that at odd hours of my life,
perhaps when there is a beautiful sunset, I shall
remember the walks we had, your laughter and your
face. Perhaps I should tell you something about my
present someone else. I met her at a party; perhaps
it is our separated longings (yours and mine), my
loneliness, but whatever it is, and there is little
point analysing and re-analysing, I did discover
that she meant something to me. Perhaps if I were
not in Singapore, studying, and you so far away,
but again so many pointless ifs. I did try to
preserve our relationship, by so many ways, but to
go on pretending and believing that I'm in love
with you would be a farce. I could never hurt you
that much. I shall always be grateful for the love
we had.
I know that you will some day
make some lucky person very happy, because there
are so many wonderful things about you. To me,
you shall be like a sister, and ours will be a
pure friendship, without passion.
Yours,
Chong.
P.S. My brother is coming back
from England - he flopped his law course - try to
cheer him up, will you?
The whole puzzle fell into place.
Wan Hor got up, kicked the pile of letters and the
note-book, and strode out. He was damned if he was
going to become a doctor.
* * * * * * * * *
Extracted from:
T.Wignesan, Ed. Bunga Emas: An Anthology of Contemporary
Malaysian
Literature, 1930-63. London: A. Blond with Rayirath
(Raybooks) Publications,
1964, pp. 108-118.